Miserable with no AC

My AC went out today, not too much fun when you have a fever and feel ill. I have been trying to rest but at same time packing a couple boxes every couple hours. It is killing me I am not in my moms hospital room.

Earlier today when she was down in the cancer center waiting for a bed I tried to call my Dad's cell. Could not get him because his signal is no good in the cancer center. I just started crying my eyes out. I just had the biggest urge to hear her voice and knowing there was not a way to talk to her right then and there just broke my heart. I cried for about a hour. I ended up calling her voicemail at her office just to hear her voice. I can't imagine not hearing her voice. I can't imagine not being able to talk to her whenever I want.

So here I sit on the couch with both cats and my fan aimed at us on high. Pop told me I could go sleep there for the night. I can't do it. I don't want to be there because mom is not there. Is that crazy? Here I sit miserable knowing I am not going to sleep well and have a cool house to go to yet I can't.

I hope she is sleeping well. I hate I am not there in the room watching her sleep.