No Diet Coke

I have had no diet coke today so I just might be a little crabby. Mom did not have a very good day. She had pain and felt ill. She slept most of the day.

I worked today and was a guinea pig for the MRI department. We had a new cardiac coil come in, had to test and train on it, so I volunteered to have the MRI. Now most do not enjoy this procedure, we slid you in a small tunnel like scanner and then there is the noise. For some reason I loved it. The noise only happens when you scan and since everyone was learning, the scan part maybe happened 20 times in the hour I was in. It was the first hour I had where it was quiet and somehow peaceful. I finally just let my mind rest. Every since we found out about mom I have been going non-stop. When I am alone, I make sure the radio or tv is on, always have to be doing something because otherwise I just cry. I have never fell asleep with the tv on and now do it every night. I hate the quiet. I use to love the quiet.

Anne and Greg called today to see if they could come visit Mom. I was still at work and mom said tomorrow would be better. Mom would never turn away Anne so means she must have had a bad time today. I worked till a little after 7pm and when I got home she looked exhausted. She did laugh quite a bit talking to my cousin Steve on the phone. I just love to hear that laugh. Steve always makes her laugh, well Steve makes everyone laugh.

Just sat here for ten minutes staring at the keys. I really just want to write how much I love her. How much I hate this. How much I am going to miss her. How , how, how , how will I get through this. She is my rock, my best friend, my hero and simply my angel. Well, there goes the water works, time to stop writing.

one day at a time..........